Raise Your Weapon - Deadmau5 [ BRAND NEW ]

Well, I finally found techno I love. I think I was just waiting for the right song to hit me.

A.ma.zing.

!!!

31 days.
That is all.

Seriously,

Leave me alone. There's a reason all significant entries from over the past month have been private. I shouldn't have to think "Fuuuck, what now?" everytime I log into facebook and have a message in my inbox.

:]

I want to be where your heart is home.

She & Him. And Him. And dancing with the girls. And beer. And Desert Edge.

Love.Love.Love.

A breath of fresh air.

Life has been incredible lately. Every single day has been a new, amazing adventure. I'm exactly where I want to be in life right now, progressing. I keep apologizing to myself every day about getting so off track. If I had stuck to the plan and my gut, I could have found this peace of mind a few months ago. I'm in love with everything around me. Friends. Family. Work. Boy. Late night phone calls. Bar nights. Adventures. Pinnacle grape. Thai food excursions. Music. Concerts. Rollercoasters. Bon fires. Pool parties. BBQ's. Every single day has had something different to offer. I forgot I was capable of feeling this way. I am so happy with where my life is going.

Now, if only we could manage to find a third roommate.. Everything would be picture perfect.

Tracers.

It's crazy that reading one word can bring back this huge flood of the most vivid memories I've ever had. Chills instantly run up my spine and leave goosebumps reminding me of, undeniably, one of the most life changing experiences I've ever had. I'm suddenly reminded of the overwhelming feeling that life is good, no great. Everything in it is great and deserves to be experienced in a positive manner. I remember what it's like to feel completely comfortable with myself. I can feel the rush of needing, not just wanting. I never understood it before. Every memory should be able to be felt this thoroughly. I'm left wondering why I can't have any other memories so vivid and questioning, for the first time ever, if I'd relive the memory or take it back in a heartbeat.

Hello, August.

I've had the most incredible week. August is definitely shaping up to be 100 times better than July ever was. I don't think last month would have been nearly as bad if I hadn't been stuck in bed recovering for three weeks, left with nothing to do other than overanalyze EVERYTHING. It feels good to feel better. It feels good to be back to working my normal crazy schedule of 55 hours a week. It feels good to be around my friends again. Hello, breath of fresh air. I've needed you.

I wish Andy Hull would marry me.

Mm. My ears are in love with his voice.

Words of wisdom from a 17 year old.

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the biterness steal away your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe the world to be a beautiful place."