mason

so, up until very very recently i honestly considered mason a part of my past. my distant past even. but after running into him the other night i'm beginning to think that i might actually want to make his part of my present.

mason was a great boyfriend. i was spoiled like a girl should be sometimes. i got flowers on multiple occasions, i'd come over to his house and end up taking a nap and when i woke up he'd be cooking me dinner and doing something so sweet and romantic for me. he remains to this day the only boyfriend that's ever cooked for me. he's a pretty cute kid. he's got the prettiest blue eyes and his smile has always instantly brought one to my face. its contagious. and on top of all that, we had this intense passion for eachother that i don't think i've had with anyone else. something just pulls us together and makes this insane chemistry. he was a phenomonal kisser and we spent hours kissing and pushing eachother into walls and knocking down pictures and hiding in the garage and his parents were coming home. it was just so heated all the time. and i'm pretty sure that's what pushed me away. at this point, i was still a virgin and didn't have very much experience with anything so i was really scared that our relationship was going to be a purely physical one. and i wanted more. so i ended up looking for any reason i could and i broke up with him for lying to me once. he treated me so well before..and i broke up with him for the very first semi-argument we ever had. sometimes, i regret that.

fast forward our lives to now. we ran in to eachother at a party. and when i first heard he was there my heart jumped a beat. i acted like i was mad. but actually, i was really happy to see him. as soon as i got there that magnetic pull took over and i gave him a hug and let it last a little long because i liked how it felt. later that night when the drinks had hit he called me baby and pulled his arms around me. and i let it happen because it felt right. i'm really glad that he was there, but it was so awkward because craig was there too. (we'll get to that later..) mason is clean now. and i'm so happy for that because it was the only problem in our relationship. he's working at a hospital and he loves his job. and he's taking care of his daughter. something that made me so upset when i first found out he had got this girl pregnant. but, he really genuinely cares about his daughter and i think it him grow up a lot.

so now i just have to figure out if he came back into my life for a reason. if we're supposed to be friends or if we're supposed to have a second shot at everything.